The Imperfections of life and Society

There are a few things I don’t understand about life, and the way it goes around. Better yet there a thousand things I don’t understand about life. Like why god see’s the things that we do, already knew we’d be doing them but makes our conscience kill us with guilt? Why everyone and their religion thinks they can really truly and honestly tell me what Jesus is thinking, and how he’s going to judge me and punish me for my sins?

I also don’t understand why I’m in one of the best relationships I've ever had in my life but I can’t enjoy it, I can’t have my family be happy for me, I can’t share it with my mother, my brothers and sisters and get their ideas, their blessings and their approval because they’ll all look it as an abomination and curse to their kind and religion. I don’t understand why my happiness must feel so wrong, but whenever my body is close to hers, and she moans in my ear everything in my world seems so right.

I don’t understand why my best friend has to break up with her girlfriend because she fears she’s going to hell, and she’s trying not to constantly mess up people’s lives because she feels like that’s all she’s ever done in life. The fact of the matter being that she’s changed people’s life, for the better. She makes people smile, she makes them happy and she inspires hearts.

I don’t understand why my girlfriend constantly tells me she loves me, falls in love with me , and pours out her heart to me and I love her, believe I do but damn my mind keeps going back to the bible, how wrong it, how much god hates it, how god burned the city to the ground because they committed unnatural sexual acts.

Besides all that religion and biblical things that I don’t understand about life. I also don’t understand the cycle of things and the way they work. Why does the rich and wealthy who do terribly things to have gotten where they are (Not all but mainly most) get to live the way they do, day after day, and the poor and sick have to continually work and work to just get shit on every day. I don’t understand that at all. Why we still have social classes in a society that has their first African American president?. I don’t understand how White people and yes I said WHITE PEOPLE think we’re the bad ones in society when we do everything they refuse to do clean shit, wash toilets, babysit and raise their children etc.

I hate to hurt any body’s feelings or put it way too hard out there, and make you guys finally stop sitting on your hands and deciding  that everything that’s wrong with your life and society has nothing to do with you, you’re wrong it has everything to do with you. The word “Negro” just didn't come about on its own somebody said it and it caught on. The word “Nigga” just didn't become a slang term for all homies in the hood, and all rappers in Harlem until someone said, and let it carry itself. Technology growth didn't just spring about, everyone in society made a complaint, made a request and it got granted.  So while we would all want to sit around and ignore the public and the real problems we’re facing let’s get real, stop wearing those masks and our fake hair and come clean, you did something to contribute to society and you rode on it to get where you are, and where you’re planning to be. Start taking responsibility for your actions. Point of the matter, our work is never